It has been over a month since my last blog post. And that’s okay because I believe there’s a time for everything.
Sometimes we beat ourselves up for all the things we haven’t done yet, forgetting that we simply weren’t meant to do them yet.
A piece was missing, a conversation, an article, a mindset shift, an incident that triggers something inside of us and boom. We’re there.
We workout, we travel, we end toxic relationships. And all of a sudden the thing you thought would never change or the dream you thought could never come true: there it is.
Here you are.
Here I am, on a plane from LAX back to Germany. Having just had some of the best 2 weeks of my life filled with laughter, new friends, endless walks and drives, exploring, crying, making new friends and having to say goodbye again.
Expanding my horizon. Hanging out in the city of angels doing what I love.
Ahhh, that felt so good.
Making that teenage dream of mine finally come true.
I always knew I was a Cali-girl at heart and I feel like I blended in quite nicely. It almost felt like coming home to a new, foreign yet so familiar feeling.
The soft ocean breeze in my hair, sun on my face making me frown and smile at once. Never more than a few miles away from the beach.
Waking up every morning READY for the day. Exited. Awake.
Embrace it if you have found a place that makes you feel light and giddy and excited to just be alive.
I haven’t had that feeling very often in my life. I’m one of those people who didn’t feel very much at home growing up.
I found myself constantly wanting to explore new places because I was looking for something but didn’t know what it even was.
Now I know.
It is the feeling of having arrived.
Feeling good, comfortable, relaxed, not anxious, stressed or down.
I now know that there’s hardly anything that makes me as happy as playing in the sun. It is what I life for.
I was not born for rainy, cold, grey days.
I live for beach days, salty hair and sandy feet.
Writing this alone makes butterflies dance in my stomach.
I will make this happen. I will spend the rest of my life living, working and playing close to the beach. Alongside with a few other things, this is part of my big dream.
And no, it doesn’t seem delusional to me at all. In fact, so many people already live the life I dream of it almost seems ridiculous not to join them for a sunset surf and breakfast by the ocean.
As I always do, I would like to encourage you today to dream BIG.
Imagine what your life would look like if everything was possible.
Where would you be ?
What would you be doing?
What would you look like?
Who would you surround yourself with?
What would it FEEL like to have it all?
Dream the reality into existence where you CAN have it all.
Your dream job, money, amazing friends, loving family, your dream home, health, happiness, abundance.
Everything you desire is out there somewhere.
There are so many people already living and breathing what you dream of, there’s no reason why anyone doesn’t deserve to live the life they’ve always wanted.
I’m sitting here writing this from my teenage bedroom in Germany and to be completely honest with you, the last few days I felt like shit. Jet-lagged, sad, angry, frustrated, empty.
Everything here at home reminds me of who I used to be and how I don’t ever want to go back to a place of such darkness.
So I really only had two choices: either to drown myself in regret I ever left my happy place in California, falling back into old, familiar, toxic patterns here at home OR to do everything in my power to get out of this rut and step back into my magic.
To write this blog post about how you should dream big and take some of my own advice because I well need it right now.
Sometimes moving on in life means leaving and never looking back and sometimes it means returning and facing your own demons over and over again until you overcome them and you can finally break free.
Gosh, I could go on for hours.
The thing with social media and the way I tend to present myself is that you all see me traveling the world and doing all these things but you don’t see me fighting my battles.
You don’t see me crying on my bedroom floor before almost every trip I take, before every time I step on a stage, before every big decision I have to make.
You don’t witness the fights I have with my Mum trying to help her understand that I need this. I need my freedom, I need to explore, I can’t sit still and I especially can’t know now what I’m going to be doing for the rest of my life.
All I know is I will continue to challenge myself, to push my boundaries, to venture beyond my comfort zone.
I will always be open and vulnerable.
And I will never ever stop dreaming again or let anyone tell me that my dreams are to risky/unrealistic/big/dangerous or wrong.
So again, I invite you to step into your magic.
Create, play, love, laugh, live. Hard.
Believe that what you desire is out there and be ready to receive.
(Meditate on this, if you feel like it. This stuff works!)
I’m going to leave it here for tonight, count my blessings and use the next few days to get ready for the next exciting chapter of my life.
Guess where I’m heading next?!
Disclaimer: I want to thank Chiara Mazzucco, Krystal Brandt and all the lovely ladies and healers I got to meet in person while I was in LA, you have all been so wonderful to me and inspired me to write this post and I’m beyond grateful to have seen you step into your power and share your gifts with the world as you encouraged me to do the same.
I also get a lot of inspiration from books I read, I can especially recommend ‘You’re a Badass’ and ‘You’re a badass at making money’ by Jen Sincero.
And of course, as always, The Secret.